I'm giving up
Giving out
throwing forced on smiles just to hide
because I'm pretty much not acting like myself

I trudge along
and show my teeth
but really all I'm showing is defeat
and I'm pissed off that I let these in my head

Stay back I scream and shout
I just wanna keep this to myself
But don't believe a word I say
especially when I talk this way
I don't wanna deal with this myself

So how do I let them know
If I don't even realise myself?
Am I just too stupid to even figure out

If I could keep my head up high
then maybe all of this whole thing might go away?
Man, I'm just too stupid to think that that would work

Stay back I scream and shout
I just wanna keep this to myself
But don't believe a word I say
especially when I talk this way
I don't wanna deal with this myself

Maybe I'll wake up today?
I might feel like doing something
I'll probably drink tea
and speak to Alice on the net
Maybe I'll phone Dave
and we'll get wrecked?
in any case it's all just running away

The more I do to take my mind of it
the more it feels like that I'm a part of it
I just want to feel like I'm myself

I think that I will just watch Breathless
another hundred times
untill I'm restless
Maybe fantasise I'm Jean Paul Belmondo
I'll fight the law
I'll flee to Paris
Go and find the girl
and we'll get married
I'll convince her to come run away to Rome
We'll make love everyday
and light a Chesterfield the right way
we'll smoke them untill we're old and dead
I'm giving up giving out

Stay back I scream and shout
I just wanna keep this to myself